Wonder.

Do you ever wonder,

Do you ever wonder if you were actually meant to be happy,

Do you ever wonder if everything you’ve ever Believed is I lie,

Do you Ever wonder if all of these things that are wrong with you,

All of these things that make you feel like shit,

Every,

Single,

Day,

Are even real?

Do you ever wonder if maybe you’ve made this whole thing up,

Do you ever wonder if you’ve just gone positively CrAzy,

That you’ve completely lost every last wit you had left inside your brain.

I do.

I think things like that quite often.

I think horrible things.

I scare myself sometimes,

With the things that rUn through my head.

And most of the time I can Snap mysElf out of It.

Most of the time I can,

For the most part,

Calm myself back down,

Reel my inter self back in,

Put her back in her little box.

Sometimes.

Sometimes,

However,

Things Don’t quite work out the way that I had hOped.