And, or

And 

Here is where it deeply begins 

Those voices, these questions 

What's with the other side of the coin 

How do I know 

Is it even possible to know 

This thing is vague, that thing I don't understand  

What am I relying on though 

Do I work with what I have now 

Is it about continuing blindly 

Or about trusting the smarter, bigger, older and holier 

Or what 

Is that how I approach other things 

But, is this even similar to other things 

Why not, not sure 

What am I keeping though, and then, and why 

This is it, a storm 

Pouring, winds, with no shelter 

Every time I attempt to take shelter 

I'm pushed into it again 

So I feel like screaming for help 

And then, that voice 

You're alone out here, in the dark 

Stop screaming 

And I stop 

Trying to figure out a way to get shelter 

I manage to make some progress, and I'm stuck again 

This time, I stay quiet 

It's pouring though, strong winds 

I'm fighting something bigger than my self 

What should I do 

This time, I start crying 

I don't have words 

I do have feelings now 

I know I'm your child 

Or am I 

After screaming, trying, staying quiet and crying 

Standing lost and helpless 

I let go

Also known as faith 

Or