A Porcelain Ruby Vase.

She wanted me to break it, a porcelain ruby vase I brought her. We stood on top of a building together, at the edge. The emotions were high and she had eyes that were all cried out. As her man, her only friend, I thought that I was doing everything right. Turns out, I was doing everything all wrong. I thought that by looking into her eyes every morning and telling her she was beautiful it would soothe all the open wounds from before.

Before she began to grow crazy... crazy from a broken heart. All the aches, the problems, the past. I thought it would all mend if I caressed her head and made her feel beautiful. I guess not. I guess all that it did was make her insecure. She thought that I would leave her at any moment, I would disappear and never return. She thought that I was everyone else. She thought that I wasn't anything. No matter how much I tried to convince her otherwise the aches were still there, she was still tarnished.

I was there, with the ruby porcelain vase trying make her see the beauty. See how beautiful she was in the reflection. Trying to make everything normal again. All that she could do was weep aloud even more when she saw herself. When she saw how depressed she looked, how drained, how empty her spirit was.

I tried everything that I could and now it was over. If I threw this vase over the edge then everything would be over.

I gave it to her on our second date. The second date was months apart from the first. It was months a part due to my inability to stay. I thought that she was so beautiful that I couldn't do anything but to leave her. I left her there all alone. On the second date, I gave her the vase with roses and promised I would never leave. I promised that I would do anything to make us last. I kept my promised so far. I know, I know that if I through this vase she will scream. She will panic with fury because it's thickness in the air. I know she will feel like that I have failed her. So I continue to hold it, dangling over all of NY.

"Do it. You stupid, Bastard! Do it!" she yells at me.

I dropped it.