People

I love being around people. They make me feel whole. They bring out the inner me but it's so hard to find these people that actually like you for who you are. No one likes me. Everyone hates me. I hate me and the world's against me. I feel nothing anymore because of what they've done to me. They read these kind of things and tell me "No im your friend. I care about you. Talk to me if you need anything." but then they just... up and leave. Its like if there only there cause they feel sorry for me they dont really care. there not really going to be there for me. Thats not what I want. All I want is someone that can actually be there for me. someone that feels what I feel. I NEED someone to understand the pain i go through EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. Im so lonley. it hurts being alone. I dont know how much i can deal with this anymore. For a world where everyone is social i feel like im not apart of this world. i am not social. All i do now is just keep to myself but everyday i try so, so hard just to fit in and talk to people but it never works. They dont understand the struggle of my life. They dont want to understand the struggle of my life. They dont know how it is to be. So. Damn. Lonley. all the time to where you just want to cry. Where you vry out to God saying "PLEASE GOD. SEND ME THAT ONE PERSON THAT WILL LOVE ME." I need that someone to break me out of my shell and hold me and tell me everything will be okay. Im just so emotionally damaged theres no coming back from this. they dont understand me and my thoughts so they just throw me out like the trash i am. all i can do is just... be me and still hope that someone comes along and saves me from trying to be someone im not. Take me from these people that are transforming me to them.

Im dying. Im lonley. Please. Help