i can’t take a breath cause if i do i might miss the absent way you say “i love you”

your fingertips feel like silk flower petals against my shoulder blades and my pain seems to fade into oblivion your lips light a spark on every inch of me and i'm illuminated by glamour and trickery i know you don't love me but your hand in mine is too precious to waste and i'll sell my soul for just one taste of your heaven even though you're my greatest sin i'm happier than i've ever been just lingering in your presence gives me the illusion of free will after all i'm choosing you still so that must be a sign that you're more to me then reliving some great past life but i'm not sure you think there's more to me i think you're enjoying the attention and the misery it puts me in when you're away oh how i want you to stay but i know you're as fleeting as a summer's dream and you'll never identify me with beauty but damn to stare into those eyes as you whisper sweet lies leaves me hypnotized but i'm so intimidated by your habits of leaving and never looking back i'm just hoping i'm the lucky one and you won't leave me alone on my own to suffocate as i attempt to breathe through my heart attack i know there's some deeper meaning beyond your vacant expression some traumatic experience that can't be contained by false affection but whatever it is it's gone now as you take your place on center stage and end our performance of a maestro playing a silly girl's ribcage like a harp as you end the performance with a bow as you've fooled everyone from me to the crowd that you believe in love and that tonight it's been found