You can rap this

I joke too much

Call me a goofball

But when my emotions to chime in

No one pays attention

When I want to talk seriously

They think I’m deliriously kidding

“Weren’t you just joking about a second ago?”

No, it was a joke of self hatred

It was naked

Weren’t my feelings obviously placed on display?

Now, I don’t mean to say

That all my jokes are to be taken seriously

But I do give out hints of me wanting to die sometimes

Although I try not to cry

These thoughts seems to make it out alive

Out though my mouth

And transform into tears right out of my eyes

And hey

There’s no stopping it now

They’ll just pour and pour and pour out

When your done you’re a drought

You see,

I know what I feel

I feel what I think

The pain of dreadful thoughts only makes my heart endlessly sink

I wouldn’t wish it on my friends

God forbid they feel dead inside

Like me

I’ll check up on them consistently

Compliment their eyes and art and their poetry

Just be completely supportive of who they’re trying be

Themselves

I remind them their pets are great

And wish then an amazing, spectacular day

Why is it that I care too much about my friends

But I don’t seem to have enough comfort and love for myself

Maybe I do care too much about myself

Im overly selfish

Overly sensitive

Let me share with you that there’s sins I’ve committed

Don’t think other wise

And I haven’t been lying

I just don’t bring them up cuz conversations will get stuck

Where was I going with this

I don’t fucking know

I was listening to Tyler all day

Thought I’d take writing some rhymes for a go

Good night