The Proposal

I wish I could do better by

you cause thats

what you deserve

you sacrifice so much of your life

in order for this to work.

Yes my bedroom is a disaster that is a burden to clean.

I go to bed when it is technically morning.

I sleep in too late.

I make plans, and cancel them the day before they happen and I dont know why.

Sometimes, I cry in the shower,

or before I go to sleep,

or anywhere there isnt another body.

They are signs of

Signs of

Signs of

I just find myself doing these things.

While Im off chasing my own dreams

sailing around the world

please know that Im yours to keep,

my beautiful girl.

One cannot tell a girl that loves too deeply

that you might just disappear someday

Leave Florida unannounced, go off to

somewhere else in the world and

never call again.

She will almost cry

stare out the Ikea window.

Her head full of water and glass

She willl try her best to be perfect for you

perfect for you

perfect for

fear

When you cry a piece of my heart dies

knowing that I may have been the cause

if you were to leave

fufill someone elses dreams, I think I might totally be lost.

You jump back and forth between promising me forever

and wanting to disappear

I will always avoid that Starbucks parking lot.

I refuse to write poetry for my significant other.

But my head is full music

full of water, and glass.

Full of all the grief that was once love but now has no where to go.

The love I wanted to give endlessly out of this fountain

that is my body, stuck this thick grey sludge

is clogging every pore.

You dont ask for no diamond rings

no delicate string of pearls

thats why I wrote this song to sing

my beautiful girl

One cannot tell a girl that has far too much hope

that this is the song you would propose to her with

as if she needed a sneak peak

as if it was coming so soon

she will feed far too deeply into the fantasy and bet her whole soul on forever

dream to fondly of the world you two would create

love you with so strong a force

she might break

might brandish

will

lose the fight with

a knife

I wish I could do better by you

cause thats what you deserve.

You sacrificed so much of your heart,

in order for this to work.

While I'm off chasing my own dreams,

sailing around the world.

Please know that I'm yours to leave,

My beautiful boy.