A letter for my crush: If I Were To Confront You.

(This is what I would tell him in person.)

-Hey, could I share something with you?

-Um, well. I have this goal. It’s not really a New Years resolution, it’s just a personal goal I’ve had for a while. I want to be more open. More honest. And well, to be honest with you...I had a crush on you last year. It’s kind of over now.* I always see those posts online about people wondering if anyone actually has a crush on them and I always thought to myself “Hey, I would want to know if someone had a crush on me.” So I thought it wouldn’t be fair for you not to know this. Wow, I’m kind of shaky... I hope things don’t get all weird and awkward.

-I didn’t want to be awkward around you so I never told you. I know we’re not that close of friends but the little we talk could turn into weird, small interactions. I still genuinely want to get to know you more, maybe become friends?But yeah, I don’t have a crush on you anymore.

-What I liked-well...I guess, like??.. about you is that you seem like a cool, chill dude. You’ve got a great sense of humor. I think the crush was based off me thinking we had a similar sense of humor. And you’re cute...but yeah. I just wanted to get that off my chest. I understand if you never did feel the same way towards me, it’s no big deal.

-And I was hoping you could kind of keep this between us? I get that it’s kind of weird and you might talk about it to your best friends, but ask them to not share it around school...? Another thing to be honest about is that I can be a little prideful...a little really. Which is another reason I never talked to you about this...I was taught growing up that the boy should always make the first move so I stood behind that.

-Um, thanks for listening and not being weird about this. Friends...?

-Cool. See you around.

*it’s not over.