Today My Mom Told Me That She Likes It When I’m Happy

Today my mom told me

That she likes it when I'm happy

But I don't think she understands

That I never truly am lighthearted

I may smile and have a bit more energy

But the sadness is always there

Sitting heavy on my shoulders

And eating away at the back of my mind

Maybe I'm broken

Because even when I feel a spark of happiness

I don't feel the urge to live

Or the want of life