Empty Words

You say you want me

but you quickly turn to other people when I'm not there

You say you need me

but you don't consider what I need

You say you have changed

but you've broken my heart too many times

You say things will be different

It doesn't feel any different, the pain lingers in my beaten and battered heart

You made the same mistake over and over, how am I supposed to trust you now?

You say you will treat me like a Queen

but you made me feel worthless, just another game to win

a game to play

I might as well be an Ice Queen, my heart is cold and numb

bitter from the icy pain

caused by you

The one that promised a pure, faithful love

but couldn’t keep that promise

You say you'll wait a lifetime for me

but I'm the one that hadn't moved on, while you did

You say I'm the only one

but that couldn't be further from the truth

flashes of other girl’s faces run through my mind

my heart breaks

how many others were there?

You take and take and still ask for more

there is no more of my heart to give you, you had it all

What is left is scars, deep and peircing

You say you love me

but now I know you never did, nor ever will

If, for one moment you felt the pain I felt

you would be shocked

shocked that someone could love that much

you would know that unlike the body, the heart does not heal quick, it may last a lifetime

You would be ashamed to even turn my way, knowing how all the things you did to me killed me internally

There is an aching cut within my soul

that screams in agony reminding me,

every moment

of every day,

that the one I thought would spend life with me...

never really loved me

the words that once made my heart swell with joy

are now tarnished and poisoned with lies

I gave you my whole heart,

I didn’t need to say it. I just did.

You, on the other hand, proclaim your “love” for me, but didn’t show it.

no

instead, you lie to “your love” and dangle her heart on a microscopic string,

not realizing she would have given Her whole life for you, her whole world.

You were

her world

you don’t hurt people you love

not over and over again

not ever

How could I have known that your words, promised with love and joy

were a scheme, a manipulation

Or that your words of trustworthiness

were really a facade, a mask, to hide the truth

You never loved me, so please, spare me the flowery phrases, the lame proclamations of love

It doesn’t mean anything unless it’s real

your words of love are just empty voids, a game plan or a script to fill your selfish desires

it seems like the whole earth silently collapses around me, realizing that after all these years, I believed a lie

Love is patient, Love is kind

love does not tolerate betrayal, unfaithfulness,

lies

love is doing everything you can to build the other person up

love is not a game,

where you get bored of one game so you throw it away and grab a new one

it is not filled with mindless chatter and empty words with no action

love is not to be taken lightly

it certainly is not forceful or

full of pain

and love is definitely not this:

When the same person that says

“I love you”

destroys you