But I digress

One who elicits a desired chemical combination

Which is difficult given that pixels are not as able to deposit copious amounts of what produces those neurochemical con jobs that bring about the insanity, temporary for those that have a modicum of control, that know that holding on and keeping your eyes open to watch the madness is better than completely giving in

But I digress

All the rest fell, leaving a trail of tears to diminish that atrocity because my white female sub heart is more valued than any other kind of heart, what with who I think I am and the joy I bring by offering to serve you in ways I see fit, not dependent upon reality or virtuality while you do as you see and i do as i do and i cry girl tears that slowly crawl down my face and i long for a word

But I digress

I demand of myself the actions that I would demand of no others and i leave a trail of burning bridges, smoke rising slowly, sending signals of please and no but i won't ask for a thing of you or shameful verbalizations of what i like, because a heart guarded is the best kind of heart, that I let you touch, I let you take out and toy with but i always hold the key and lock it up after a volley of words and i never say one word and i never will

But I digress

You fell for sweet and you fell for kind and i get where you fall for that bs because that's fun to hurt and make the sweet baby girls cry and kittens just hiss and sputter and only let you get a pet in before they bite you with sharp dagger teeth and sharp dagger words before they flick their tail and walk off

But I digress