Living with a shadow

How do I describe my shadow to one that does not know the true me, the one that few see? How do I describe my shadow in a way that one can comprehend its meaning to me? You see, my shadow is a part of my very being. I owe everything that I am to my shadow, for it is the reason I strive for greatness, for glory. Despite this, I resent that accursed shadow. I am confined to it. No matter how hard I try, I cannot escape it. I cannot hide from it. I cannot run from it. It is ever present in the far reaches of my mind, weighing heavily on my shoulders. It taunts me, ridicules me. It wishes for me to know only the deepest pits of despair, and so I must constantly struggle against it. I cannot allow myself to give in to its desires and the desires of those that conspire with it. My stubborness prevents me from doing so. It is a trait that often leads to the downfall of many, but it is my salvation. It is the source of my determination, so I fight with every ounce of strength that I possess. I must. It is a never ending battle between my shadow and me, a constant crusade to break free from the trap it has ensnared me in. My one wish, my only hope is to one day be liberated from the shackles of my shadow that bind me to these feelings of unworthiness and become my own person with my own thoughts and ideals beautifully unique to me. The day my life is no longer ruled by my omnipresent shadow, I will know what it truly is to be free.