self destructive

How can I hurt myself today?

I don't know what's left to do.

I'm not sure what's wrong.

So it's clearly in my head.

Something inside.

How can I hurt myself today?

I'm scared of pain.

But there's something inside.

And I need to pry it out.

The blood is soothing.

But the burning vexes me.

And I can't go deep enough.

To find what's hiding there.

How can I hurt myself today?

I'll flush it out.

Keep my mouth shut

Till my stomach is hollow.

Emptiness consuming me.

But it's never enough

I can still feel it

Eating inside.

How can I hurt myself today?

The bottle's smell sickens me.

And the taste isn't better.

Burning everything.

Yet revealing nothing.

How can I hurt myself today?

There's nothing left.

I can't even find

Any merchants of bliss.

Nothing I can take

To rip myself apart.

How can I hurt myself?

I have no control.

My body wants me to live.

Yet won't let me thrive.

I can't find what's wrong.

So all of me

Has got to go.