I’m Sorry

I know what you wanna hear...I'm sorry...oh wait but I'm not. I will apologize for absolutely nothing. Everything I have written and felt is valid! There's no way that I'm apologizing. This could have all been avoided if either of you would have just talked to me.

Yeah...but I'm the one that hates confrontation, sure.

It doesn't matter. What's the fucking point? In a few weeks my seat at our game night table will be filled by someone else. I'm not needed.

If it hurts your pride that much that you can't be the one to apologize for once, fuck it!

Like i said none of this will matter in a few weeks. You'll be gone...both of you will be gone cause you'll be living together! Funny how all this lined up. Almost like it was planned.

You know all I wanted was a bit of closure. You know just something to make me feel better from either of you but fuck it. You'll both be gone and it won't matter. Who cares about the girl who lost her boyfriend and best friend around the same time? No one and the really fucked up part, I knew you wouldn't apologize. I knew it was going to be me and I was so ready to. Because I thought I needed you and your friendship and the "group" but do I?

Do I need to apologize and push everything under the rug?

Do I need to show up, smile and pretend like everything's fine?

For who's sake

Mine

Yours

Hers

No and to be honest I don't give a fuck about your sake. Nothing is going to be okay, both of you made sure of that. And again even I did start talking to you...what's the fucking point when your leaving? You're going to move in with him and I'll never hear from either of you again.

So yet again I'll be alone and I'll fucking deal with it like I did before...well hopefully a little better than how I handled it before. I really don't want to stay in my house for to years barely seeing anyone. Good thing I don't have that option and I have class to get me out of bed.

You know...it takes two people to make friendships and relationships

and it takes two to break them

I should not be the only one to apologize. This was not my choice.

So I'm done.

I mean isn't there some girl code rule that says

Thou Shall Not Move In With Your Best Friends (very) Recent Ex?

Or simply put... Thou Shall Not Be A Cunt!