Why

Why do you always find my flaws? No matter what I do you seem to draw out a negative and push it at me. You make me out to be a wicked witch. I'm a child why does everything have to be perfect. You may not realize, but even with flaws I still do better then him... you know the child you lift up on a chair, make him out to be a king cuz he is just so perfect. We are both in cross country, the play, soccer, and show choir... but yet you still only look at him and say look at how busy he is, how he is amazing. He has senior open that means he goes home at around 1:00, but guess what he does nothing but video games same as when he gets home from soccer and play. Of course you say its okay that he gets to relax because he is just so terribly busy. Then again when I come home and relax or even check my phone for a second I get yelled at.

Here is what I mean, this was a day in my life: woke up at 5:00 to fold and do dishes, took out dogs on a long morning run, showered, took care of myself (like washed face brushed teeth), took care of a litterbox (that isn't even my job but he never does it), got lunch ready, got my school and soccer bag ready, picked up my room, got on makeup, and then left for school early. I was at school from 7:38- 3:30, now 3:30 is when school gets out but not how long I was at school. At 3:30 I went to the locker room and got ready for soccer I was in soccer from 3:45- 6:00, I had to leave soccer early to go to cheer that was 6:03- 7:00, I had to leave cheer early to go to play that was from 7:01- 9:00, got home at 9:06, showered, took out dogs, switched loads of laundry and foled them, picked up the house, fed pets, loaded dishwasher, then tried to go to bed at 9:58 but only to have my mother come and yell at me at 10:00 at night. That caused me to get even less sleep because I was angry and my mind was going off, now keep in mind that on an average I get 3-4 hours of sleep on a good night, but since my days were like this Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday I got that many hours in total on those 3 days.

Now lets see what my brother did that exact same day: woke up late and left for school. He was at school from 7:56- 1:00, he got home, did nothing (I could tell because if he actually did something then I wouldn't have to do as much), went to soccer at 3:30 was there till 5:47, went home got food and showered, went to play at 6:30 was there till 9:00, got home at 9:04 played video games and finally went to bed at 10:39.

You see in my life nothing is fair, I do everything and still get yelled at... while my brother does nothing and its perfectly fine. In anything I do I get told it is not good enough or I didn't do it perfect. I get told that I should be doing this because I'm not as busy as him, total bull shit. They only notice things he does thats if he does them while I work my ass off to do everything I get no thank you just told what I should do. See if my brother picks up a dirty towel off his floor my mom says thank you. Why? He picked up one damn thing and gets a thank you as I do laundy, dishes, and more... but get nothing. Hell if I saved someone from a bullet and got hit in the process you would just tell me how I could have done better or they probably wouldn't even care till the medical bill came in.