In Memoriam of You

Remember when we were younger, when we thought we were immortal? That we could fly? That we'd stay kids forever? How, when our parents told us that life wasn't "all fun and games" we couldn't believe it?

I do.

And I remember how when the harsh realities of high school and the disapointments of life closed in around us...it was you who lightened the load. You could make anyone laugh, and, in return, life smiled down on you.

You were the link that held my weakened chain together, my lifesaver in deep waters. I can't honestly say where I'd be if it weren't for you. I don't think you ever realized the impact you had on me, our schoolmates, our teachers...even the world.

Please don't be upset, but when they close the lid to your coffin, when they lower you into the hole...I won't be watching. I can't bear to see your eyes closed and your mouth sewn shut with invisible thread in an unsmiling line. I don't want my last memory of you to be that casket disappearing from my sight.

I want it to be of you, doing what you did best--making me smile.