Dancing Tonight

Tonight I will wait

for the sun to set

I will wait until the turkeys roam into the woods&

deer come slow and still to graze in leftover light

Tonight I will allow myself to dance to music

All tealights and bare wood floor, curtains drawn, door locked

Maybe I will put on the wild summer dress I have yet to wear

Under the true orange three quarter sleeved blouse

My feet bare or in socks

Tonight I will have a small party in my place with cheese&

crackers and I will go to the corner store for a bottle of wine,

that cheese, sharp cheddar or something smoothe like cream

My van will make it that far

Tonight I will spin and let the images flash or linger in the room

Colors, sounds, touches, tastes, scents I cannot identify be celebrated

For dancing is a celebration and tonight

Tonight I will not wait for that missing Other

If I end up crying in a circle of cheerful colors on a floor in

Dim candlelight that removes the years

It is the absence of another that allows this freedom

Tonight you see

I promise myself that tonight will be the night

I allow myself to dance alone in the dark without the critic I carry

Everywhere I go