Pondering on wonders
In life I have often wondered,
What would it be like for me
If i've chosen the bumpy and rocky road
Would I be satisfied and content?
If I tried to be the captain of my ship
Instead of being a voyager
Will it make a difference?
Would I be happy where the tides take me?
If i have let the wind take me
Instead of having someone control the sails
Will i find peace with every decision i make?
I have ridden the ship
And let the captain take its course
I let them control the sails
And let their wind take its course
I know where the journey would take me
And I'm not happy
Nor am i sad
All my life i have chosen the safe road
The flowery path
The suns and rainbows
I am neither content nor satisfied
Does this make me weak?
Does my situation seem bleak?
If i ever did change
What difference would it make?
Because reality is
In this life survival is the key
I have a job
A house
I can live
I can survive
I know I have everything,
But why do i feel like i have nothing?