12:12am
Staring at my pillow through my blurred vision and my face streaming with endless tears yet again
I think to myself “why do I love somone who just keeps hurting me”?
Why do I keep doing this over and over again? When do I draw the line?
When do I let go of the hope that twists and turns in my heart?
The hope that maybe one day things would be different
Things would be right
But they won’t, they never will
There will always be lies,
other girls,
temptation
There will be pretending, there will be manipulating
There will always be that memory of knowing I wasn’t pretty enough,
I wasn’t fun enough,
or good enough
When he says he loves me
but sneaks around when im not there
Is that love?
Does he love me when he lies?
Does he love me when he is laughing, holding hands with another?
Does he love me when he plays with my mind?
Does he love me when he rips my heart to shreds
You say you have "paid your dues" and apologized to me
Does saying "Sorry" undo what you have done?
Does saying "Sorry" make up for all the times you made me feel worthless?
Does saying "Sorry" justify your unfaithfulness?
Must I forgive you yet again and have the same thing happen again?
I may have been niave then, but I can see right through that act you put on
Stop pretending..please...let my torture end
Where you pretend to be passionately in love with me
And as soon as I look away you've got another
It's just a game to you, isnt it?
All the world is your stage
And you string on hearts like puppets
Do you really know what love is?
Do you Really know?
I dont think you understand at all
All I've ever done was love you
And all you've ever done was hurt me
You dont hurt the people you love