Lonely and Your Bed

Studies have shown that the loneliest people spend the most time in bed. But doesn’t a person’s bed have everything that’s supposed to make them happy? Think about it. Your bed has warmth, soft things that make your skin feel even softer. Your smell, something you know is your own. And for some, their bed has the person they love. Of all things, shouldn’t this make people want to spend more time in their beds? It makes sense to me. So why do all these “experts” seem to know how lonely these people really are? I can guarantee you they don’t just tell people these things. No lonely people, TRULY lonely people, never SAY they’re lonely. Because they don’t want people’s fake apologies, “I’m always here if you want to talk”’s and “come to (insert supposedly interesting place here) you might meet someone”’s.

No. The kind of lonely these people are, and I am, is the kind of lonely that doesn’t want to BELIEVE they are lonely. The kind of lonely that is in constant denial of how lonely they really are. They try and convince themselves that they have friends and people that love them. And maybe they do! But that doesn’t change a thing.

Im beginning to think the word “lonely” is a personality trait. It sure seems to be that way. Because no matter how many friends you have. If someone loves you more than they could ever say, if you have an amazing family, despite all that, you still go home every night, and try to disguise the pain you shove so far down that not even YOU can seem to recognize it anymore.