glasses

out of the womb,

i always imagined my first steps were toward a noose, looking for an escape from this endless pain.

three psychiatrist a week just to tell me something’s wrong with me, soon my therapists will become depressed because that is the word we use to define understanding of the innate nature of the universe isn’t it.

i’ve shed light on the topic of this word depression and many people now agree that there’s no point to live, because they see the truth hidden beneath the lies we are fed as just infants. has God cursed me or blessed me is to still be determined i see things more clearly than anyone will ever. i was given an example imagine you are wearing sunglasses and think the world is dark but when you choose to take them off you can see the light all around you , i of course responded imagine these glasses are prescription helping you see things more clear why would you take them off and be as blind as everyone else. my psychiatrist didn’t know what to say so just joked about me being intellectual. i found this annoying. there’s something different about me that not a lot of people see but those who do are either amazed or terrified so why take the chance i’ll continue to wear contact lens so no one can see me glasses.