So Funny

“Oh hey look, shitbrick is here.”

“Hehehe.....you are so funny.”

Hello dear bullies,

Do you hear me?

Or has your fucked personality finally started affecting your brain too?

Everyday I walked past you.

Everyday I gave you a chance to apologize, or just ignore me .

Yet every time you gave me those degrading ,nonsense comments.

Every laugh from you and your critters burned another invisible scar right onto skin ,as I hugged my sweater even tighter around me.

Every “little” jest of yours brought me one step closer to the edge.

And I know you said it was only for laughs, but laughs are a dangerous thing.

When it is you who is laughing ,it is always “just for fun”.

But when you are the one being laughed at, it’s like the world around starts closing in on you. Every harsh glare seems to look right through. Because it as though I am naked. Naked because you have hurt me, punctured me and all my secrets are spilling out and I am desperately trying to numb the pain.

Each little snort keeps me up at night, it’s guttural sound echoing through the silence and I just keep thinking, what did I do wrong?

Where did I go wrong?

So people, laugh.

Laugh till your jaw falls off for all I care.

But remember, every little snortle at someone ,brings them closer to death.

Because somebody’s innocent little laugh ,tipped me off the edge.

8/15/18