A DRAGON’S TRUTH - Hunter Luzadder 3/27/18

Do you ever feel like even your struggles are failures. Like you’re not good enough to be good but you don’t struggle enough to say you struggle. You’re caught in an in-between. And when you fail it hurts more then you feel it should, you’re not good enough to actually do better, but you’re not bad enough to do this poorly. How do you fix such a mindset?

You disappear, when you think that you’re struggling youre only reminded that others have it worse, when you think that you’re successful, you’re belittled by those who are better than you. No matter how much you change the world that recognizes you will remind you who they think you are.

So you dissolve, vanish, gone in anyway you find possible. And those of you who have not left the world completely, look into a mirror and try to find yourself, but there stands an army of defeated veterans. Soldiers who use to fight for you.

All your past selfs stare back at you, victims of a useless war. You lost, not because you couldn’t win, but because you fought on the wrong side.

We do not believe that we were worth fighting for, not because of our failures, not because we’re think we’re are not good enough, but because we could not find a reason to be successful.

Your words have done many things to my mind and soul, but it can not hurt my body. So inside of it they hide, shards of a greater man, a fire consumed by an even greater power.

You do not believe I am strong enough, otherwise you’d allow me to risk it all. Yet you tell me I am too strong to fail so you will not except my failures. But it was I whom failed me, for I entrusted myself to you, disowning my own banners I fought myself for you. And like the dragon I am a burned everything you did not approve of swallowing them up.

I am a pitiful beast, not strong enough to breath the fire anymore, but just enough to keep them consumed so they do not burn you.