Mental Brainstorm-1

The world I see is very different from the way the others see. When people see love floating in the invisible yet gentle zephyrs, I find no love but hatred flowing amongst the disturbed pattern of these very zephyrs. People ignoring me like a pathetic plague and giving the look that sends a negative message to my brain. The only message I can receive telepathically is, “Be gone from this world! You are an abomination!”

No longer can I think positive for negativity has outnumbered the positive impact of life upon me. Colours of the flowers, once I considered beautiful, now feels more like a distraction and a fish out of water in my views. I no longer see bright colors; for black has become the brightest in my eyes. I know from this, I will live for only a couple of years. But I will not die. Rather I will wake up from the sleep in which I have been dreaming all of these pains and burdens; and will stand with my head high in another dimension. The very dimension where no one will recognize me; a dimension with no love, no pain and no regrets. The scars I have achieved from my time on this other realm will be gone and my heart taken out and replaced with a void to be filled from experience. Will this new "heart" be able to accommodate a hint of love? Or will it be full of hatred and pain just like the one from the past? These are the answers I want to find out.