life-saver

i lined up the

many bottles of drugs that night

and promised

only

one more day.

and then i went to sleep,

awaiting my real slumber.

next day,

i saw you.

following our usual patterns of

avoidance,

i looked away quickly.

i wanted to stare into your

bright, brown eyes.

so, so much.

but i couldn’t.

not anymore.

but then,

you came up to me.

your body

was closer than it had been

in 4 months.

the same one

that pressed against me

in those late nights

followed by lazy mornings.

i was fire.

after living in numbness

for

so

long,

emotions took over every sensation,

making me dizzy from

your beautiful presence.

and you whispered

in that sweet voice,

“Hi.”

and that was it.

for the fire to explode

for it to take over

everything

of the nothing

that had been lying in my soul

for far too long.

somehow, that one word of yours

made me throw away

every

single

pill