Blue

Im drowning in my own misery, a well or abyss of my own creation. It’s made up of the expaectations I place upn myself and those others hav eplaced on me. I have always wondered what would happen if the pressure on my chest could be alieviated, removed, permitting me to breathe. I feel as though the more I struggle to meet these expectations the farther I drown deeper into myself, into the cold. I need someone to help me. Pull me out of these murky waters. to be able to breath without fear of my chest caving in. Help me, please someone. I am an imposter in my own body and it is trying to kill me. Im drowning, sucking in water and not being able to expell it, screaming without making a sound. Help me.