A Philosophical Answer
I don’t want to be anyone else, nor do I want to be anything else other than what I already am. The pain I endure will shape me, like all the physical and metaphorical wounds I have. And I may be alone, and I may be alone for forever, but I will learn through it, and will be shaped by it. I don’t want to think of instantaneous change, because it’s cheap. It has no backbone; happiness not earned isn’t happiness at'all but complacency. Would I like to be happy? Sure, no one wants to be sad, but I am. Would I like no longer be alone? Yes, but the reality is that I am alone. Partially because of who I am, and partially because of uncontrollable circumstance. Either way, I wouldn’t wish for instantaneous happiness or companionship. Love not earned isn’t love but rather a lie; and happiness not earned isn’t happiness but complacency.
- Michael Hall