Playing Chicken With The Dimly Lit Walkway

One more step, one more hour waited. Maximize the danger, minimize the inflicted risk. How much can this hurt if I really dont care anyways? How much fear can one person have when their stomach is already empty? Without anything to cling to I cant be afraid, if I have no hope how drastic will this feel.

Calm down its just one night walk.

Maybe three or four more. Maybe enough until the darkness swallows me whole.

You'll find me underneath the street lamps just watching.

Im watching my world pass me by.

But is it really my world if im so anxious to leave it?

Is it really worth carrying pepperspray in a clutched palm if I welcome whatever happens?

Im playing chicken with the darkness. Willing it to jump at me just so I can bite back.

Who can inflict pain the quickest? Maybe it will help me feel more alive.

Its just one more walk along the tight rope.