Dear Everyone.
Dear Everyone,
Hello.
I’m sorry.
Extremely, extremely sorry.
I forgot to tell you about what was happening to me.
About the... Changes.
I don't mean physically though.
No.
I forgot to tell you that my mind was full to the brim with darkness and I was screaming for light.
So loud... Screaming so loud...
But not enough to scare away the demons.
Not enough for you all to hear.
I forgot to tell you about the pain I felt, just staring at myself in the mirror.
How difficult it was to walk... Breathe...
Live.
And I am truly sorry for forgetting to tell you this.
But did I forget, really?
Didn’t you hear the lyrics of the songs I sang and the words I muttered under my breath?
Didn’t you see the bags under my eyes?
Or the hopelessness within them?
And surely, surely you could have at least looked at the physical.
The scars running down my arm, forever embedded into my skin that I was too weak to hide.
Did no one notice the changes?
Well... It doesn’t matter now.
It's over now.
I'm finally dead and I'm finally free.
I am tired of apologising for forgetting, so I can only say I am sorry for refusing to remember.