Shackel n Chains

Why can’t I seem to let you go when I know deep inside, the truth

Its not love, but a bond formed, after losing our child in youth.

Since that time Ive held on to hope,  

That one day you’d again be mine,

I’m no longer able to fool myself,

That our paths love will align.

My heart is breaking slowly, as I turn to walk away

A part of me prays you’ll stop me, and ask me once more to stay.

How could I expect a reaction as  as such, when for years I’ve been last on your list,

Time after time, I tried blocking you out, and again I lack, strength to resist.

Today when I left it was different,

I hadn’t forced each step to the

door,

Each step that I took, weight was lifted,

A lightness I’d not felt before

Then stregnth fueled my body to walk away, leaving behind all the sadness & pain

I’ll put one foot in front of the other as I break free from your shackle n chain

DarlaS #cptsdnme #ptsd #stopthestigma #trauma #warrior