mixtapes & memories (first kiss)

5:42 p.m.

"anxiety sucks," you say

"we're pathetic," i agree

we sit in silence

hands tucked between each other's fingers

you're too scared,

so i lean in

it's not magical

or anything

it's nothing i ever imagined

it's sloppy

loud

short

and foreign

(but we'll work on that)

8:38 p.m.

we sit back on the couch

my head in your lap

as some pretentious motherfuckers

hunt for houses on tv

i call you beautiful

you tell me to shut up

so i tell you to make me

(we're getting better)

our lips do not crash

they glide

and this time,

we do not stop after one touch

we keep going

and going

and going

until i am gasping for air

and you have traveled my forehead

my cheeks

and my lips

9:48 p.m.

10:02 p.m.

11:26 p.m.

12:00 a.m.

until 3:00 a.m.

and every minute between

10:37 a.m.

my lips flutter

on your skin

(we are perfect)

12:45 p.m.

we take advantage of

what we're not supposed to-

it comes natural to us now

i have never wanted so much

to freeze time

and hold you in my arms forever

i have never loved you more

than i do right now

1:02 p.m.

we take a walk

on the country side

hand in hand

taking poses and polaroids

on broken bridges

spilling over with graffiti-

"i'm so in love with you"

i kiss your cheek

we walk on

2:35 p.m.

we are on our eleventh episode

of bob's burgers

but neither of us mind

you are soft

you taste of honey-

this time i do not lose my breath

3:15 p.m.

3:43 p.m.

we take one for the road-

and you are gone