A HOLE

I dug a hole in the ground for you today

User, taker, false promiser

No matter how many trophies I laid at your feet

No matter how much I bent over backwards

It was never enough

I was never enough

You professed what you did not feel

talked love yet had no inkling

That

it wasn’t only about you

Or what you could get.

Its about what light your candle brings to another’s life

At the end you burnt and hollowed me out

Yet I was unable to let go

You showed me

that

Empty people make things empty

I covered a hole in the ground today

I can walk away now.

There is strength in my legs to carry me.

one step at a time

I don’t need to run

Anger is no longer my crutch

Pain has stopped being my shield

I still have the self doubt

“Why do you carry that? People ask

I reply with a sad smile

Because they do not understand

People with baggage make baggage

I saw a leaf sprout in the ground today

Tender and delicate

Somehow the clouds have parted

The sun is shining again

I have met someone else

He is all colors of the rainbow

Bright and robust

The circle is complete

I have dropped the self doubt

I feel refreshed

My swagger is back now

It took me close to a lifetime but I figured it out

Broken people make broken things

Whole people make things whole