t r u t h

i will always paint you

as the bad one

as the one who broke my heart

and i am sorry

because it was not you

who broke me

it was me

i broke myself

i broke you

my heart

desperate to survive

drowned itself

in the waves

of your love and care and honesty

i am sorry

i never deserved you

and your beauty

we were made

for love

we were made

for each other

i am sorry

for messing it all up

for creating turbulence

when all you did was try to kiss the rain away

when all you wanted

was me

and my love

i am sorry

for crushing the flowers

with my doubts of your pure honey-love

i am sorry

i am sorry

but i am not asking for

forgiveness

please don't forgive me

i don't deserve that

either