GOODBYE CRUEL WORLD...

I'm sorry but I don't have anymore cards to throw; and I've lost my will to play the game. Perhaps you all will find a better match and move on to much better days.

As for me, I'm all done here... And before you ask, Yes, I'm terrified... But I've already waited too long already which is why we sit here today.

Forgive me for trying to mother... It was my most anticipated stage in this life and Because of that I could not refrain.,. I realize now, I have no right to influence so potently the lives of others that are here for purpose.

I'm sorry as well for my mothers misfortune to have been saddled with such a soul as me.... I can't imagine a thing in this world that would be deserving of such a heavy weight....

Sorry to all those that still linger here with the rest of the living... Those that I have known and somehow disappointed or de-railed from their course in life.... I never meant to be the barer of such disruption and pain...

Sorry to Priscilla for knowing her for so long... Im sure that has done some damage too....

I'm sorry to be long winded... I only have this one chance to say aloud that I'm sorry and that I meant well