Bye Bye Babydoll

I've always been one of those artists who keeps trynna pour blood back in a broken heart, and just hope it don't leak, but inevitably it ends up on my sneakers with me on my knees. cause I knew that she should leave but I honestly couldn't believe that she did it so casually, like bye babydoll hope you remember me in your dreams.

But I can't sleep and I wont eat cause my souls starvin and my jaws weak, and that glass ceilin I was standin on just shattered an buried me in broken pieces, of a nightmare sequence, of sequins and rhinstones on that cheap ass necklace that I made her when I couldn't afford to give her the sapphires and she wore the motherfucker every weekend. Just to see me smile, cause she knew that while I played tough I was drownin in the incipient stages of suicidal tendencies steppin up the self loathing and the deprivation, deprication, deffication on my own dreams, even with the mirror polished I was blind to the fact that I was nothing but my worst enemy, and nothing better for a bad mood than to pass it around and she took it all, every drunk call, every fuck you, and she gave it back as a love true as the water of life and the light in the door of that dark room, and I never tried to do nothing more, than what I couldnt give her in the first place, every minute out of every day, while we struggled just to keep the rent paid. I was cursed with a passion and fanatic ravenous hunger for whatever it was that others said that I couldn't have and, im pretty well certain I broke us for that. But if that ain't a fact then, stop the actin, I know that you loved me but did you believe in me? or were you waitin on me to just level out and tryin to quiet my brain while my veins were pumpin this battery acid. I wish you had been there, when I hit the stage, and electrified it, everybody in the crowd hangin on every verse that I slayed, and I wish I could say that I didnt mind, but I promised you no more lies, and I told you up front that I'd never normalize. And I promised you diamonds the number of stars in the sky, and the world wrapped up in gold leaf, bound in triple twist twine, and I said that I'd bring you moon too, with a little more time. Sorry baby just one more rhyme, ill be there in a minute and you stayed up all night, layin alone in that bed knowing it would be sunny outside before i fell asleep at the desk with a pen gripped in my hand and I know I made you cry. And you knew that I was dyin. And I wish I could say that I'm glad you didnt let me take you with me to the other side, but I cant deny it, I'm a sick man, and I shouldnt have been so silent. I shouldnt have tried to fight, over the trivial shit in life, and I want to apologize, and I wish I could say that it doesnt eat at me inside, that youre on to better things, seein higher sights, took another flight, left me by my lonesome and while I hate that I couldnt make it work, I'm more afraid that you id hurt and id tell you I wish you stayed, and im better than my worst. but I promised you. No more lies.