Honesty

I can’t even explain the pain you brought me. Not a day goes by where I don’t think about you. I try to push my thoughts aside and focus on what’s happening in the now. I try so hard but nothing works. People say it’s better when someone is gone and you don’t see them. “Out of sight, out of mind” they say. You are out of sight but you are not even close to being out of mind. I have no options. I can’t talk to you, I can’t call you, all I can do is helplessly miss you. Pathetic, raw, and painful emotion. Everything reminds me of you: songs, stores, restaurants, pictures... memories. I am trapped inside my memories. I’m sorry but I had to get it out. I’m sorry I can’t get you out of head. I’m sorry but I want them gone. I’m sorry I miss you so much I can’t forget you. I’m sorry I spent my time and my energy falling for you when you ended up leaving. I want a reason to hate you but I just can’t. Please give me a reason to hate you.