What Does It Mean To Me?

Failure is every time I try and wear something nice to school, in hopes someone might just talk to me, and then it coming to the end of the day and no ones even batted and eye.

Failure is every time I plan to tell my mother I want to transition, but my nerves get the best of me, and so I don't.

Failure is every fucking time I try to get help for my suicidal thoughts, but I decide that my problems are too petty and not worthy enough for thinking that.