lies

do you ever get the feeling that

everyone's lying to you?

do you ever get the feeling that

you aren't as good as everyone says you are?

do you ever get the feeling that

your life will never amount to anything?

do you ever get the feeling that

your words won't ever matter?

do you ever get the feeling that

your friends hate you?

do you ever get the feeling that

someone's trying to break into your mind

and steal the thoughts hidden there?

are you scared to go to the doctor like me,

because you've read too many news stories?

do you ever lie to protect someone,

and then find out that

they don't even know you exist?

do you ever get the feeling that

you have no talent?

you probably don't feel this,

because you have something.

i do, because i don't.

do you ever get the feeling that

they will trash talk you

about your insecurities, and say you're

doing it for attention?

that's what my friends and doctors and parents say.

they say i cut for attention,

they say i'm too scared to kill myself,

they say i'm weak,

not strong enough,

they say i need to accept failure.

but this is real life

and in real life

failure

isn't

a

fucking

option.