dear -----,

i love you.

and i never thought i would admit that in any form but my thoughts.

i looked in your eyes a while back and have still not escaped their captivation. when i look up and see you, i am looking towards something more than a face. it is a jolt of happiness running through my veins. it is a smile on my face bubbling up from the depths of inside me. it is a mindless look, but it sends waves to my heart onto the shores of my naievety.

my eyes will wait all night and stand in the rain to get a chance to lay eyes on yours. the split second of our connection is the final piece to the circuts of my heart. whether you know it or not, thank you.

given, it is no suprise that you are prominent in my rounds of thoughts. among my schedules, relationships, deadlines, and emotion, your image is there. floating, waiting to dive into my mind with any hint of connection to your being. in the midst of a conversation, with the smallest mention of anything somewhat connecting to my vision of you, the smile bubbles its way back up. my eyes light up again. and its the beach waves, the circuits, and the warmth all over again. you have overriden my perception of love and left me scarred. with memorable, confusing, and beautiful scars. you have left me questioning myself. and although it was tough to internalize at first, i have accepted it.

i am learning to embrace it. i love you. there. i said it again.

you are atractive and admirable. i love your passion for those you care about. and the way you carry yourself. your hair. your style. the way your eyes look when you smile. that time you touched my shoulder a while back. and yet, i am hesitant for much more. the perfect image, the daydreams, and all else of you in my mind has no time now for tarnish. i want to enjoy every second of this.

but let me not further occupy the time of the reader. all i want is yours, really.

really.

with love to spare,

m