Free Writing, Essentially

I'm scared. Im scared about what I'll do and what I wont do. I don't want to just post this as is, but I guess- shit I don't think I should have used the comma there. O well. Dang the H. Forgot the H. My foot is jittery. There's nothing here. But prose will know if I change it. I dont know how but they will and I'm thinking faster than i can type. My I isn't even capitalized on the last sentence. My stomach is squeezy. Cause I have to post this and I can't change it. Writing scares me because I want to live it. Love it I do enjoy it. I enjoy stories and all art forms that deal with story. Books. comics, games, movies. Etc. I'm just worried I'm not good at it or I'll have to never do it when I want to so badly. I just blank out and can't even look. I have to stop comparing and focus on me. I just need to write for me. Why am I writing. Why do i love it?