`(0nnec+ion`
in a walk so arid
and a street so bare
how nice it is to see a figure approaching.
a sillhouette with my same cadence,
singlemindedly traveling
to a destination behind me.
but how much will i love the second
when we brush shoulders
or stare into eachothers eyes
before walking back along
never to see each other again.
i will listen to the jingle of your backpack,
hear clearly the steps of your feet,
look into your eyes,
until our paths swerve away again.
i look up now,
see you closer.
five rowhouses away,
i can almost hear your headphoned music,
see your sparkling eyes.
a few more paces,
we'll be close to the split second
connection.
in our world
of simoutaneous independence,
unsynchronized rhythm...
i crave that human connection.
our second of synchronous
propelling my walk home.
i look up.
within reach, almost.
eyes locked in mine.
almost at our peak,
the houses on the left
and the cars to the right
are fading in my vision.
you, your jingling backpack.
waiting for our full eye contact.
waiting for the singal.
the connection-
and you grasp that hood of yours.
delicatley lift it over your curls,
and not more but,
you lower your eyes.
they are drawn back to your glowing box.
and stay there,
head down.
animated human versions
pulling you closer than the real ones.
i am the perfect victim to your forcefield,
looking away like you wanted.
walking forward again,
thinking
nothing
of you.
i am left looking blankly
at my left,
only seeing the space your eyes could have been.
the space we could have looked
and smiled
or imagined
or touched shoulders.
but no,
i am let down
by my own kind
again.
i'll keep on walking,
waiting
for the next passerby,
i guess/