Blink

I close my eyes.

Everything rushes through at once, thousands of moments, fleeting and crushing. So many sensations, it’s as if they’re drowning me, pulling me further and further into that sheer abyss.

As if my life were nothing than a cheap student made movie: my first pet- an all black kitten I lovingly named Sirius, my first kiss- a young boy who did it on a dare, the time I got kicked out of an Applebees for having one too many daiquirs, my first breakup, my first panic attack, then my second, and my third, and there goes my fourth.

All these visions swim along an ethereal screen, and I have no choice but to hold my breath and pray it will end soon. When will it fade away, when will this vast ocean become a drought?

I open my eyes.