To Dearly Departed, With Love

My fingers turned ice cold

My heart skipped a beat

As I held onto your hand

Afraid that if I let go

You would fall into peace

Selfish was I, I still am

I'm afraid I'll always be

My palms turned sweaty

But the cold refused to leave

The thumping against my chest

With each beat grew

Stronger than the rest

Striking, struggling

Pounding against walls built

Of bones, trying to break

Open my rib cage,without a key

Soreness erupted suddenly

Despite a hundred beats per minute

The hundred and oneth left me

Gasping

Gasping in disbelief

Gasping for air

Gasping for life

Your life

Not mine

I knew your time was near

But that near would be now, was my biggest fear

My heart tried with all it's might

To beat for you

To pump blood through my veins

Fast enough

To turn my monotonous flow

Into turbulent waves

In hopes that my red sea

Gushing and foaming

Would work well

As a substitute

For your failing pump

I loved you and I still do

Even though your eyes were closed

I know that you knew

Which is why when

My fingertips turned to ice

And my heart skipped a frantic beat

Yours did too

Our hearts in perfect unison

For one glorious short-lived moment

Only the warmth never returned

To your palms

And yours skipped more than one too many

When I heard the long drawn

BEEP

Searing, scorching heat

Trickled down my flustered cheeks

I pressed my palm against yours

But you didn't reciprocate

Instead when I loosened my grip

Your hands fell limp

Your sudden absence altered my fate

I look back now and I'm glad, in a way

You've broken chains which held you down

Failing organs that left permanent creases

Bed ridden for years, you crumbled to pieces

Now you've been revived, better than ever

Soar with the angels and I'll forever remember