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Tuesday night

friendly faces

colors and flowers fill the room

and there i stand

black from head to toe,

bruised purple and blue on the inside

'are you okay?'

inside i'm screaming

begging them to search my eyes

oh god, please

show them the window to my soul,

how it has been stained with acid

and shattered by harbored hate

but there he stands

watching over me

'i'm fine' leaves my lips

before i know what has happened

and he smiles

knowing he won again

and they walk away because they heard

what they wanted to hear

i stand alone

wearing a smile

that disintegrates my soul