Alone

Never by my side, always alone am I

In the beginning there were signs

but I chose not to acknowledge them

I buckled-up on the roller coaster ride of love

with eyes wide open, throwing my hands in the air

Surrendering to whatever would come

He was handsome and gallant

I was naive

I wanted the fairytale

and he provided the book

Together we would fill the pages

Those early years passed quickly

filled with passion and anticipation

Gloriously wild and free, life revolved

around him and me

My Knight in shinning armour

He came from over-seas

Everything about him was

mesmorizing, tantalizing

And then just like that on a nondescript day

he dropped the bomb,

the ultimatum!

In retrospect,

not an easy decision for a starry-eyed girl

Follow him and live over-seas

or accept the unthinkable

Already in love, infatuated,

wanting the fairytale, afraid to lose the future

I followed

Surrendering my goals

along with everyone and everything I knew

I would become a wife without ever being a bride

Young and married by the law

No wedding, no reception

and in the end

no recollection!