Why am I here ?

It's early morning five o clock am and I lay here because can't sleep and the burning yearning question that won't go away is why am I here ?

Last night I went to dinner table no one uttered a word every time I spoke it went silent then on to the next person . I'm invisible to my family

After everyone was through they all got up walked away and mom said then clean up mess before you go back to your room . I took dishes and scraps to the sink and refrigerator . I am alone in this world they are all laughing watching tv with each other . I wipe table clean and wash the dishes sweep floor . When I hear a shout Come Here make us popcorn and go to your room . What did I do to become so much the walking plague ? Not even a goodnight from anyone or I love you honey , Just silence in the night So as I lie here in bed at 5 am I wonder will I be missed if I just go probably not so why am I even here still ? When all you have to look forward to is sleeping and you can't even do that right anymore it's time to go ? I don't even bother with a note so again I ask why am I here ?

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As a side note to the story many teenagers feel this way when all they want is a sign that there still loved And cared about so if your a parent try to tell your kid you love them at least once everyday and if your the teen do not give up or runaway please get help from friend or adult before you do anything . If your contemplating suicide call someone today helpline or friend don't do it you have your whole life ahead of you .