Connecting

The human being is in constant need of finding connections. Yet, the connections we have are what can cause us the most pain. Having faith in ourselves, in someone else, or in something is a force as strong as the ocean that aids us through our survival. But that force in reverse; getting disappointed in ourselves, being betrayed by someone else, and losing and aching for something can be the wave of our destruction.

So we need to choose.

To either, live a life too afraid to love, too afraid to dream, and too afraid to lose. And as a consequence never know how it tastes to ache for something. Or have the faith necessary to believe in things outside our control and take on all the risks.

Faith is aligned with both creation and destruction. Just like the laws of physics, matter cannot be created nor destroyed. However, it is always created and destroyed in a cycle of restoration.

Faith in my grandmother meant that every time I would see her smile and hear her warm words, I would recognize that it might be the last time I do. But, also acknowledge that my faith in her smile and stories do not cease when she dies - but stay. They stay in the space she smiled in. If people do not know our stories the walls of her house do. If that house gets broken the pieces of concrete do. If everything is moved and the land is demolished, the air that touched her lips as she smiled over and over again is still carrying her laughter and words across the universe.

Faith in myself demands going to sleep feeling like my dreams are on a faraway planet and I will never have enough time to build a rocket ship fast enough to reach them. But faith is also waking up the next morning and trying to build a rocket ship again, no matter how many times I tried or how impossible the odds seem.

Faith is knowing the world’s poverty statistics yet giving a beggar in need a sandwich on the street.

Faith is loving;

and having faith in oneself that you will be strong enough to lose what you love.

Faith is losing;

because you had the courage to let the force into your life in the first place.

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