Rant post — I’m just super emotional today and not sure who to turn to

This is not twitter, but I don’t have an account and I’m having a bad anxiety right now.

For the past many weeks, I’ve been finding it extremely difficult to fall asleep at night — or day, for that matter. My heart would start beating really fast, which forces me to sit up and contemplate all my life choices.

It really sucks. I’m still super young. My body shouldn’t act like this.

I’m so, so stressed. The only thing that provides me with a sense of freedom at all is writing. However, lately, I’ve also been feeling that my work is deteriorating, feels insincere, and ultimately unsophisticated, which I don’t know why I care so much since it’s all about emotions and self-expression, or at least that’s what it should be.

I care too much about what other people think. Even now, I am aware that the way I phrase this post may not sound intelligent enough to be listened to or appreciated. It’s getting a little difficult to be rejected so often.

:(