loving you shouldn’t hurt this much

I pause. Inhale quickly. My chest constricts, and my vision tunnels.

Seeing you shouldn't hurt this much.

I want to run into your arms. Tell you how much I missed you. That I love you.

That I will always love you.

But instead I just smile. Wave. Exchange pleasantries.

Keep it all inside.

We promise to stay in touch, no matter the distance between us.

And maybe we will... for a while.

But I know eventually you'll find a girl. And fall in love.

And I won't be able to watch from the sidelines anymore.

Because this hurts too much. Because I need to move on.

Because loving you is just too hard.