A letter I will never send #1

Dear mom,

I love you, dear god do i love you. I may not say it anywhere near enough but you will always be the first person I ever truly loved. Mom, you're beautiful. Even though dad never could make you feel beautiful I will somehow show you that you are. There is not a single word that can accurately describe you, and I will rearrange that lifeless alphabet and I will create a word that is saturated with your essence. Mom, forgive me. I have apologized so many times that I now realize how empty my words are. Forgive me. Mom, thank you for this life. Thank you for your presence. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.